Darkness surrounds and consumes me as I sit here wishing for death and that is the way I shall remain until the end. I have been wishing for death for so long now, and have tried to help myself towards getting it, but nothing I have tried has worked. I have cut, overdosed and strangled myself and nothing is what I have gotten. Not scars nor bruises are on me from my attempts. So I stay here, wandering in the dark, only wishing I would die. I have given up on everything, including death.

 

LOST AND CONFUSED

 

i have no feelings for anyone... but i miss them all. i'm lonely but i'm scared to be close to anyone. i dont know what is going on or what to say. i'm slightly jealous of a friend because she's happy. i dont want her to be unhappy, but i want to be as happy as her, and i realize now that i never will be. the reason why is that everytime i feel close to someone, i get pushed away or something happens to them. and what i mean by "something happens to them" i mean they die.